Part 2

"Wandering in the Wilderness"

( Part 1 is HERE)


The Baby Boomers have a secret. People with secrets do funny things. We didn't *mean* to bury this knowledge. When we were young, many of us spoke openly about it to our parents and other people who had charge over us. It was only when we saw their response to what we were doing and saying that some of us learned to hide from the truth.

When the Baby Boomers were young, when our lives were brand new, we remembered. We came here to be physical, but we brought with us the treasure of knowledge concerning "the other side." Whether it meant that we had invisible playmates in the early years, or whether it simply manifested that we "knew things" about other people without being told--our parents and teachers quickly caught on to the fact that we were a force to be reckoned with. And reckon with us they did.

Bondage exists in many forms. A person can be tied up and limited in physical reality, or he can simply be bound up in his mind and emotions. A huge percentage of Baby Boomers grew up in reasonably affluent families. After all, our parents had survived the Great Depression. Their goals in life centered on providing for us all of the material security that they, themselves, once lacked. If we asked them for things, they gladly provided us with things. Freedom, however, was another story.

The rebellion of the 1960s was mostly about freedom. The counter-cultural movement and reverse-status values were a statement, made by the Baby Boomers, to our post-Depression parents. It was an outcry for the release of the love of *things* and a return to the love of *people.* If there were underdogs in the world, we tried to demonstrate that we cared about them. We marched, we sang, we protested. Meanwhile, our parents shook their heads in amazement. How could we be so ungrateful for all they had done for us?

The 1970s arrived and things began to snap back in line. The Vietnam War was ending, and Civil Rights legislation promised everyone that fairness would prevail. Still, the Baby Boomers were uneasy. They remain uneasy to this day.

Many of the former hippies among us moved on to "normal" lives in our 20s and 30s. Those are often years of focus on marriage, raising families, and seeking to make one's mark in the world. Though many of more die-hard hippies simply went underground, maintaining their counter-cultural ideas, the majority of our generation merged with society and became a very distinctive and individualized part of the status quo.

Still, the concept of freedom remains a dream that hides underneath the concerns and preoccupations of our busy lives. However, this "freedom" is something other than just social change and civil fairness. It is a spiritual thing, a shadow form of something we cannot quite describe, but something we all definitely know is there. We somehow know that we need to find it and explore it, hopefully before we pass on.


The title of this article, "Wandering in the Wilderness," makes reference to the ancient story of the Children of Israel in the Bible. By the time Moses had found them, they were slaves who worked hard in the house of an Egyptian ruler, a king who possessed much power and material wealth.

The Baby Boomers who have merged with modern society could basically be divided into two main groupings. Some of them, like Moses himself, have been discovered by the Powers that Be and have been given great influence over the multitude. Indeed, Moses was as esteemed in Egypt to be like a Son to Pharoah himself.

Other members of this generation found ourselves in more common territory. We got jobs, had families, found friends and became entrenched in the everyday world of mortgages, taxes, and the battle for bread. Our "brick pits" may be more comfortable than those in Egypt. However, many feel enslaved nonetheless. We are Multiversal beings, who feel shackled within a world of duality.

I sincerely hope you are following this analogy. The comparisons between the barbarism of ancient Egypt and the slavery found in modern society are not exact ones. There may even be those among you who fail to see the connection at all. This is possibly due to the fact that Baby Boomers are still trying to understand within themselves this affluence of the body that produces poverty of the soul. And, even though many of us drive fancy cars and live in beautiful houses, our spiritual lives wander through deserts of doubt, with lips that are parched from the heat of the sun.


For an entire generation, born between 1945 and 1957 (or thereabouts), the basic incongruity of life has been about material wealth for the body and starvation of the soul. We were born idealists, redeemers, and revolutionaries. Many of us now are living in "successful" and "secure" mediocrity, feeling as though we have never actually achieved any deep inner purpose besides, perhaps, basic human reproduction.

The Kunta Kinte of today is not shackled in his body. Rather, he is bound up within his mind and soul. To complicate things, he is functionally *addicted* to technology and creature comforts. It seems as though he would not rebel even if he could. And if he did, against who would he fight? The enemy lies within.

For the Baby Boomers, our worst foe has been forgetting who and what we really are. The Governments of our land have grown up around us, re-enforcing our need to keep on forgetting. Our leaders *hide things* from us because they feel we would be too upset if we found out the truth of what is going on in and around us. They are probably right about that.

The Internet could be an incredible tool for freedom of mind and spirit. For many of us, however, it often merely serves the purpose of allowing one bound up soul to whisper through the bars of his "cell" to another one. Of course, it's a real treat to know that the other "prisoner" lives thousands of miles away. It's also a treat to be able to joke and be cynical about society, organized religion, and politics. It diverts the mind and (even sometimes) quiets the aching heart.

Freedom, however, is once again afoot throughout the land. Little by little, there are voices rising up to speak the secrets and open up Pandora's Box. The voices are still soft and their message only falls upon the ears of those who are ready. Little by little, we have started to *remember.*


If the enemy of our spiritual freedom lies within, then so does the battlefield. Social legislation didn't change us in the 60s. All it did was create expensive regulatory agencies that clamor for tax money and increase our mountain of paperwork in the 90s. Collective change can only come through individual transformation.

Spirituality cannot be mandated, like Constantine tried to mandate Christianity in Rome. It can only be *unleashed* in the minds and hearts of those who feel ready to dance with it. Our society is "re-membering" its SPIRITUAL ROOTS through books, television, music, movies, and art. Our governments, who have been hiding things from us, are now *allowing in* a steady stream of radio talk shows, Internet postings, books, TV programs, and movies to *tell us,* in a gentle way, the direction we must take if we wish to get to the Holy Mountain. The Pharoah, who we hired in to ground us and contain our power, is now agreeing to "let the people go."

Years ago, when innate truths came forth from our young lips, our parents talked us out of it. They banished our invisible playmates, explained away our dreams and visions, threatened away our highly intuitive mutterings, and rocked us to sleep. Today we are awakening. We are sprouting channels, psychics, seers, prophets, teachers, healers, and visionaries galore. Of course, some of us still need to shake off the carpetbagger attitude of those spiritualists among us who arose in the 60s, 70s, and 80s and felt the need to get rich from what we know. That topic, however, belongs to a whole other series of articles! <s>


What happened to the Children of Israel when they left the House of Pharaoh is also happening to the Baby Boomers today. The Jewish people marched out of Egypt, across the desert, in search of a new life. Moses had promised he would take them to a new land, a place that flowed with "milk and honey." However, when they reached the mountain, they proceeded to wander in the wilderness for 40 years, until a whole generation had died off, before they were allowed to enter the Promised Land.

It seems old habits die hard. The idols that existed all around the Jews in Egypt seemed to have rubbed off on them. When Moses went up on the mountain to commune with a Living God, the people down below immediately began to build idols of gold to worship. Those Israelites surely must have given Moses a giant headache when he came down from that mountain. Fortunately, the Lord had given him two tablets to ease the pain! <s>

The Gods of Stone and Precious Metal that the Jews encountered in Egypt provided something OUTSIDE THEMSELVES that the people could worship. The Tablets of God and the Mosaic Law also provided the Jewish people with something OUTSIDE THEMSELVES to obey.

In the 1990s, the Baby Boomers are still wandering around in the wilderness trying to figure out who to obey and what to worship. Many of us picked up on organized religion in the 70s and 80s to ground and focus us after the turmoil and the extreme crisis of values experienced in the free-love era. Those who were not lulled to sleep by materialism were placated by ministers and priests who preach to us from supposedly infallible words written in a book, or which were spoken by some descendant of an Apostle.

The psychologist Carl Jung was once quoted as saying that "religion is a defense against a religious experience." Truly it seems that our formula responses to eternal questions have acted (so far) as shields for our tender consciousness, keeping us from going inside to seek our own truths.

Most of us have forgotten how easy things can be when the mouths of babes are opened, when the clear voice of Spirit within each of us can flow unhindered from our central core. We are still looking around corners or under rocks to find out who is listening and what horrors might befall us if we dared to speak the truths that we know! Of course, we have big reason to be concerned about horrors. Many of us have inner recollections of our deaths from public executions and tortures experienced during the burning times of the Inquisition.

But now things can finally be different. God, Himself, has claimed to have come down from the Holy Mountain and has mingled with the people. The Creator and the creation are becoming ONE, and the voices of Spirit are being heard and proclaimed throughout the land. And yet, here many of us are, lingering just outside the Gateway to the Promised Land, wandering aimlessly in our self-created wilderness.


For every doorway that leads to the unknown, there are travelers and there are watchers. In the movie "Stargate," which we have referenced in a few other articles, James Spader's character stood before the portal and looked back over his shoulder at generals, scientists, scholars, and other observers. Then he moved forward, through the waters and into another dimension of reality.

The Generation which witnesses this new transition upon the Earth will be just like that movie. Some folks will be watchers and some folks will be travelers. Those who die off while still in the wilderness will be allowed to enter the portal within the souls of their Star Children.

The Star Children, as has been mentioned previously, are those who were born beginning about 1973. They are the children of the Baby Boomers, or what Spirit calls "Transitionals" who came before them. They are those who have been equipped to enter eternity while still focused in physical form. As we have also said, there are some Baby Boomers who have been doubly equipped to assist in this process. The remainder of us will simply merge with their consciousness, as all our ancestors have done within us.

The trick to accomplishing all of this, of course, will be how to release the tourniquet of control which we have placed over the flow of our inner knowing without causing a hemorrhage in society. Our schools are still set up to "teach" the Star Children things. We want them to memorize and theorize, because that is how the Baby Boomers were taught to exist in a world of forgetfulness. We are KID-ding ourselves, folks.


If society is to make it through the next 30 years, we are each going to have to turn inward and ask our traumatized and drugged inner child to recount for us all the knowledge we have blocked from out of our memory. If we cannot seem to do that, then we must allow our *outer children* to perform that task. Those born after us contain the seeds of what we have cast off from the conscious mind. We have "fragged it out" to them. To "frag" is to break off a piece of what is (into a fragment) and put it somewhere for safekeeping.

Star Children naturally function from the "old" place that their parents were never allowed to visit for very long when they were young. They are gothic, they have wild imaginations, and they can focus into many realities at once. Even more important than that, they have the sense to shut up about it! Innately, they know not to push their parents too hard about the "weird stuff." Yet they deal with it, daily and regularly, with no hindrance and no fear.

It is *we* who need to learn from *them.* Antiquated educational institutions, staffed by old-timers with "tenure," need to be replaced with actual apprenticeship groups which explore real life skills that the kids truly believe will be of help to them. This will solve the "passion deficit" which many teachers seem to notice in their students.

By saying all of this, I am not implying that we need to cast off the current educational system. That would be an example of "hemorrhage" that would produce panic and confusion in our society. Chances are, these new educational clans and tribes will be paraprofessional in nature, growing up around our current education system. Perhaps there are some things happening in the home-schooling movement that will become the matrix for this new shift in educational methods. If this is to happen, however, the parents and friends involved with home-schooling must also set aside their need to "teach" the Star Children, and realize that they have much to learn themselves.

Do we desire to know what "curriculums" to present to our kids in these new "Star Academies?" All we would have to do is follow them out to play when they get home from school. Their "play" is really their work that is being accomplished for our future. We can't see it because we do not reason from their perspective.

The games of "Dungeons and Dragons" or "Magic, the Happening," for example, both teach imagination and creation from within, giving exercise to amazingly resourceful minds. Video Games simulate many of the creatures and inhabitants of spiritual realms that exist just outside our Collective Consciousness, but which are being blocked by our own Veil of Forgetfulness. By "playing" with beasties on a computer program, the kids are actually acclimating themselves to life in the Multiverse.

Many of the history books we cram down our kids' throats would be incredibly fascinating to young minds if we let *them* choose the parts of history which stimulate and interest them. We can learn and re-prioritize our own inquiries into history by noticing what it is that grabs the interest our kids. Like nurses in surgery, we could benefit from standing back and simply handing tools to the *real* doctors of our society, taking time to explain to them (when they request information, which they will) exactly how the gadgets we have prepared for them operate.

Educators might argue: "How about reading, writing, and arithmetic? They will surely need to learn it. And they *will* in their own good time. We just need to get out of their way, so they don't activate the blockage of rebellion against our pre-fab methods of teaching these important subjects. When the mandates to learn are removed, the desire to *know* always increases. How could it be otherwise? These kids have SUPER COMPUTERS for brains. Do we think they'll let them sit idle once we get out of the way? Au contraire!


To be truly fair to everyone involved, especially to the teachers and principals (many of who work tirelessly and make big impacts on their students' lives)---this clinging to "old ways" of learning is not really so much about blocking the future as it is about searching for the past. The Baby Boomers are really *still looking* for our own stolen child. As we enter middle age, and our physical vehicles are beginning to dysfunction and slow down, our lips are trembling with the emotions of grief over all we have lost and all we have forgotten.

One motivational speaker has gruffly declared to the leadership of the present world these important words: "We must lead, follow, or get out of the way." By declaring this, he denies deeper access to the tremendous emotion that is pent-up inside an entire generation who forgot about who it was and who it still is.

In the movie "Hook," produced by Steven Spielberg several years ago, we find an updated version of the story of "Peter Pan." In this wonderfully playful romp, Captain Hook re-enters the world of the Eternal Child (who has long since grown up and become an affluent attorney) and steals away his children. He does this in order that Peter might pursue him back to Never-Never Land and re-engage he and his pirates once again.

Right after the children are stolen by the dastardly Hook, Peter Banning (he changed his name too) is confronted by an aged and broken Wendy, who gently but firmly, holds up a copy of his picture in a storybook and challenges him to remember. She says to him: "Boy……don't you know who you are?????" What's more, believing himself to be severely under the influence of alcohol, the shaken man encounters another old playmate, Tinkerbell, who sprinkles him once again with fairy dust.


In Never-Never Land, the requirement for flight is that we be able to hold a "happy thought" in our mind---something with the power to *lift us* above the everyday world. For Peter Banning in "Hook," that happy thought was the joy he felt when he became a Daddy.

At the risk of making ourselves throw up because of this wallowing in excess sentimentality, we Baby Boomers need to reach down inside our own hearts and find out what now makes *us* rise up with joy. When we encounter the magic, it may not look like we thought it would. It also may not require as much sacrifice as we were told it would when we surrendered it so long ago.

The Star Children are waiting for our cue. They know how to get inside that doorway to the Promised Land, but they are hesitant to leave us behind. They too are insecure about what they know. They would rather go with us than leave us here in the desert.

In this series of articles, and in the Transmutation Network posts that support and expand upon it, we will be including the sharing and insights of many of you who take the time to write in and discuss their ideas, their experiences, and even their pain. I don't propose to make this another "Dear Abby" for parents, because advice is not what we all need. As has been shared before, the answers all come from within. All sharing is, of course, anonymous.

In future articles, we will talk about our new priorities, the expansion of old methods to accomplish new results, and many other things. Keep these articles and/or pass them on to your friends if you feel so inclined. The information is (finally) free for those who will accept it. Our goal is to let *all secret knowledge* begin to flow free again. The fruit of the tree is sweet, and there is no longer a death sentence if we taste it. Can we believe that?



Copyright, 1997, By Daniel Jacob.  All Rights Reserved.